Standing in awe of Your grace

Setting my feet in Your ways

Entering into Your presence

To behold You face to face

God of all Heaven and Earth

Holding me in Your embrace

Unfailing love that surrounds me

Oh.. God I stand amazed

My Jesus, my Lord

You’re the love of my life

Wherever You go

Wanna be Your side

No longer I

But Christ living in me

Serving You for all eternity

My eyes set on You

In this race that I run

No longer my ways

Let Your way be done

Make me a servant

My heart’s ever true

Clinging to the cross

I’ll follow You

I’ll follow You

It’s been a period of time since I came back to do some blogging.

What a time and place for me to be blogging – when I am admitted for observation in TTSH for a suspect of appendicitis. Bleh.

There’s a tinge of blessing in disguise. That is, I need not detour into office specially tomorrow (Saturday) to complete the cheque for Huber’s that Boss asked me to. Teehee. Not a good thing as a matter of fact though. I cannot meet the CG for lunch, then to do the filming for Pst’s birthday video, then queue with the CG (probably the first and last time the whole CG would queue together!). Sigh.

There’s pretty much alot that I don’t wanna be here.

First, it’s my FIRST time in my life staying overnight in a hospital as a patient.

Second, well I’ve heard a fair share of hospital horrors. And it didn’t help that lights went off at around 12midnight, both ward and corridor lights. I’ve seen nothing so far. So am I not ready to encounter such stuffs like what Pst Kong has mentioned before? If so, I hope God keeps it this way. Lols.

Third, even if I am not having appendicitis, dad and mom is so not gonna allow me to church. I’ve already missed CG meeting! Plus, I requested to Lili not to let me do training this week cos it’s been seriously AGES since I joined the CG before and after service. Yet this happened. >.<

Fourth, from the moment the doctor at the polyclinic said I’m referred immediately to A&E, to the A&E doctor saying I’ve to be admitted for observation, to being put on drip, to having some medication stuffed into my ass to let me empty my bowels, to forcing the drip back into my veins cos it stopped (which totally hurt), ITS ALL SCARY! Placing a brave-not-scared front to mom (she accompanied me throughout) and dad (who hung around at the cafeteria) to make them less worried, isn’t easy. Their worried faces made me feel really irritated I had to be hospitalized and make them worried.

Fifth, I haven’t eaten the entire day. When I am finally hungry, it was the time I’m about to go on drip thus no food, or drinks! Torturous without any water. Aircon is freaking cold and a blanket that is wonderfully thin to go with, had to request for another blanket. Maybe it’s the hospital bed and pillow, I couldn’t get to sleep for long. Tossed and turned for almost 2 hours, I gave up. So here I am blogging.

Oh goodness, I’m whining. Hahaha. But I feel better. Think I’ll try to catch some sleep. By faith, I’m praying everything will turn out just fine! And that I can go service! Don’t wanna doze off during sermon, so goodnight all!

I was reading this article Pst Kong wrote about how we can stand strong during persecutions, thought it was good to share.

Here’s the link, go read:

http://www.konghee.com/www/2009/07/standing-strong-in-persecution/

我只愿能更多亲近你， 
依偎在你同在里，更贴近你的心意… 
我只愿能全心依靠你， 
永远不离开你… 

是你赐给我生命气息， 
赐给我温柔的心，让我能全心相信… 
世上无人能够取代你， 
一生只愿为你… 

主我献上自己，成为爱的器皿， 
来完成你旨意，一生永不放弃… 

主我献上自己，求塑造我生命， 
指教我你命定，我全人只为你， 
一生只愿为你…

working at 5 but woke up at 2plus with a painful strain on the left side of the stomach. curled like a ball for almost half an hour to no avail of feeling better.

remembered Pst preaching on the power of visualization. thus i kept visualizing and having the faith that i have no pain and i am perfectly fine to stand straight and walk etc.

amazing God i have, the pain reduced and i managed to get up to bathe. continued visualizing while bathing, felt so much difference!

actually told kenneth i’ll rest more and start work at 7 instead, but feeling so much better, i reached bunk at 1650, to seetoh and jielin’s amazement. the look they had made me feel so victorious.

hallelujah jehovah rophe~